Changing your mind..

There is something weighing on my heart today, so I thought writing about it would help. I also know that there are a few of you going through a transitional period in your life, hopefully this will help bring you courage, peace, understanding and strength.

I recently left my job and headed down a different career path. When I was offered the new position, there was this feeling that something was not right. I can’t put my finger on it, but something was off. Call it intuition. I took a week off after leaving my last job and heading to the new one, because Eric had back surgery, so I wanted to be with him for that. My previous job was very laid back but busy all the time. There was always something to do. The new job is also laid back, but there isn’t enough work to keep me busy all day. I know that there are times when the work slows down at every job, but this is different. The first week here I “worked” about a total of 1 hour. I was there for 40, but I only worked one. Now, for those of you who know me, you know that I cannot stand to just sit around. I need something to keep my mind busy or I go insane. Enter the last two weeks… I have been exhausted when I get home because I have spent all day trying to find something to do. My mental health is beginning to go down a road that isn’t good and I am struggling. I went home on lunch yesterday and explained to Eric what I was feeling, and he said… “It’s okay to change your mind.” Wait…. It is?  I was feeling guilty when I took the position because I was taking a significant pay cut, but I was okay with that because I was getting my foot in the door. During my first week I found out that the department that I want to be in eventually is being cut, so my opportunities to move to that position are gone. All of the sudden the pros to taking this job began to slip away. I now have one pro and about twenty cons. Then Eric tells me that I can change my mind. I don’t owe a reason to anyone but myself. Our happiness should be the number one priority in our lives. If I am not in a good place mentally or emotionally, how can I be what I need to be for my kids? How can I be the best version of myself if I spend 40 hours per week being miserable? I changed my mind.

Changing our minds doesn’t mean that we were wrong, or weak. To me, it means the opposite. We had the opportunity to grow, however short that was. Did you learn something? You were strong enough to step back and realize that you don’t like the initial decision, so you adjust. You make a new decision; you change your mind! I posted a quote to my personal page today that said, “Follow your soul. It knows the way.” What if I had to take this position to learn how much I appreciate and respect the field that I was in? My soul knew what it was doing when it led me down this path. Now, I have some difficult decisions to make. I am going to trust in my soul and know that I am allowed to change my mind. Stay strong mommas!

Xoxo

Becca